This is bad. Not because not exercising is bad for your health (although it is) but because I am supposed to be training for a 1/2 marathon. It's hard to build up mileage when I can't even leave the house. It hard to improve and meet goals when I'm not even willing to try.
Yesterday, I was stressed. Normally I'd run to get rid of that stressed energy coursing through my body, but like I said, I haven't been able to get my running shoes on my feet. I just sat in that bad energy instead of running through it.
This morning my husband asked if I was running. I hemmed and hawed and said that I should, but felt nothing about getting up and actually doing it. He said I had to, that it was time and that I needed it. He said to go small and just do 5 miles. He said I always feel better after a run and this run would make me feel better too.
I acquiesced. I strapped on those shoes and headed out for five miles. For not running in a week, I felt fine. I quickly decided to run my six mile course, not the five. I thought through all my thoughts and found no answers. But I felt better. I prayed for what's on my mind and found no answers, but I felt better. I solved nothing, but I felt better.
And as I headed home, I found the motivation to add one more mile. Seven miles completed by someone who couldn't even tie up the laces yesterday. And I remembered that my husband is usually right. Running does always make me better, I just have to be willing to lace up those shoes.
